Dictatorship

 Feels like I can't ever find a dissolution for these things with you. I can talk bt. It will never get through with you.

You want what you want and you won't change that. It's hard being like this. 

You don't hear me out. 

Your argument is superior. That's it. 

No questions asked. 

You talk to me like a dictator. There is no democracy in this relationship where u listen to my thoughts and weigh it. Especially when I point things out. 

It's your way or the highway. If u want me to talk to you nicely treat you nicely not only when the days we don't have any arguments or what not maybe you should try to listen to me, if u try to listen and understand what I have to say and where I'm coming from. Just try to be me for once. I feel that this is a problem with you. You are too individualistic to the point we can't be one. We don't have the same thoughts when it comes to understanding. 

I'm sure u feel the same abt me, but sometimes I try and I quickly apologize for over stepping. Because I know I'm wrong.

I wish that would happen for me. 

I wish u could see that in any moments of time we should have the same thinking of how we stop each other from arguing. Instead of adding fuel try to stop it. And don't be childish about it by saying 'you started it' this is what kids say to each other. 

You always say it to me.

"You started it" 

All you ever say is 'don't blame me' 

Everything that has happen 'don't blame me' 

Why can't I be in a grown up relationship. I'm sad abt this you know. I'm sad that you can't see this that if anything you'd think that I need to change, it's always me, I'm wrong I'm at fault. 

Why is that so? 

I feel that i am talking so much abt us. Abt how i see that we should change. But you always nitpick on me. I'm wrong I'm this I'm that. I get emotional because it's love right? You only feel this once in a lifetime? Right? 

I try to feel more for you but rverytime we got a roadblock you treat me like how you treated me the same way you treat me when we fight. Irregardless of how big or small the situation was. I'm just treated the same. 

When you told me you don't want to be the middle person hit me hard abt how individualistic you are. If in any instances in the future its what you'd say. To anyone. 

We won't be of one mind. Because this is what you'll say. 

I don't need my own validation of how wrong the plans were because it's just small things. What if they were big things? Ever wondered how things would turn out? 

I feel that you're full of confidence because you seem to be the only one working with a lot of money and you don't take what I do seriously. Even when i was working those times. You argued with me when I was at work u made me cry in the office. You always ask me not to disturb you at work but what about you! You don't even think that I deserve any credit for the job that I do or the study that I'm pursuing. You asked me a few times why am I doing this course? 

I'm very subdued and mellowed in this relationship like I can't speak from my heart n be understood abt my own views and thoughts. I'm not happy. And knowing you. You would say It's not your fault. Because it's always mine. I have to be the one to change. 

Everything anyhow is about you even when it was my birthday; instead of asking me how was this lobster place you took me you told me this "I see this as a treat to myself" it's like that day I was just accompanying you to eat lobster. I wasn't throughly satisfied by the way u behaved or acted that day. You were just trying to tell me you could afford a pricey meal and I couldn't. You didn't ask me if I liked it or not or happy with the place I was in?  Only I told you I was thinking of lobsters and that made you happy.